Up until tonight, I'd considered myself fairly capable of handling anything and being able to get everyone where they needed to be (mostly) on time.
Tonight I realized that this Saturday, I will fail.
There is no way to be Dillan's helper in his first baseball game, keep Jeffrey contained, keep Marcus happy AND get it on tape for Adam... and its that last part that's killing me.
I have to admit to myself that I CAN'T do it all.. and its devastating. I desperately want to make sure all of my ducks are lined up... at least the ones seen by the general public. Why is my best not enough in my own mind? Why is it perfectly acceptable to literally everyone else but not to myself? Why am I rambling on and on?
Why am I throwing myself a pity party with a guest list of 1?
*sigh*
